Originally Published: January 2, 2009 11:04 p.m.
At this moment I am writing while my children are arguing with each other, at this moment I am writing while I hear chairs moving in the kitchen that shouldn't be moving. At this moment toys need to be picked up, my carpet needs to be vacuumed, dishes need to be washed and money needs to be made.
At this moment I'm trying to find out how I'm supposed to be a good mother while all the chaos is going on and how to remain calm in certain situations. For instance: "Son, please don't tease your brother (after the fifth time he was told)," or "No, honey, Mom is in charge. We cannot go buy you a toy this instant. Sorry!" Or how about this one: "Get out of the refrigerator!" as in your "whole body" out of the refrigerator!
At this moment I want to say "Calgon Take Me Away." Or better yet don't you wish there was Mommy Magic Dust? It's the magic dust that could make you slimmer. And if you sprinkle some over your kids, they become the most well-behaved kids you have ever met. If that was true I'd be using it every day. It would be in high demand and every mother would be addicted to it. Of course, police wouldn't be breaking down doors for it because, aside from mothers looking and feeling rested from this magic dust, all kids would be listening to their parents and no problems would arise.
But that's my fascinating mind working on overload again. It can help sometimes to bring a smirk to my face letting me know that I really need to get back to reality. Yes, but also that the kid inside of me is still there. It's good to know that, you know.
I'm still learning each day just as my children are. I keep wondering when the day will come when I'll be able to rest, relax and hear silence. I can't help thinking that it's never going to come. I have to go to it, don't I? And what does that mean? How do I do this? How do I remain positive when there's nothing but chaos (good and bad) in my life constantly?
At this moment I need an honest opinion, what's yours?